My EL marks are for crap. I'm srious. I doubt whether or not I'll get a band 1. Thank god I am in the Excellent range for oral or I'll do REALLY badly. Tamil I think was done seriously bad. And my teacher might have dropped a hint that I got a really LOW mark. Instead of feeling encouraged by my marks for PSLE, I feel like crying. I'm really feeling demoralised and I am debating to whether or not tell my mom. It really, REALLY worries me. And the added fact that I am going to do REALLY badfly for PSLE. And one of my friends, she gloats to my face. It's funny sometimes but it's really depressing for me. URGH. I am REALLY, REALLY, worried for EL. I have NEVER gotten below 80 for it and my PSLE year is not one that I would like to start. And as for Math and Science, well, I don't really have that much faith in it. And the way my classmates look sad at the mark of a high Band 1. I feel like punching their faces and it makes me even more unhappy knowing that I certainly DON'T belong in the best P6 class. So not. My marks will get me nowhere here. And my MT, though unknown, is definately not good. I HATE MYSELF for this, but I won't kill myself, dear friends, don't worry. But the thing is, do I really WANT this as I tell myself? I mean, sure I want it, but am I WORKING FOR IT? Surely not. So, I have taken it upon myself that for my PSLE, though my fate for MT and EL oral have already been decided, if I work hard at reading and writing and PRACTISING maybe I WILL do well. But the goal is not reachable. Surely I won't do as well as my friends who get obscenly high marks. And the fact that I cannot write to save my life doesn;t make me feel better either.. What a GREAT ending of a FABULOUS week. I really, really need to work harder. And the advice that I gave Pris that she could do better for PSLE, well, I have to take it too. Besides, if I work I might be able to get it. My personal goals have to be achieved, but EL marks are not confirmed yet cause Mrs Lau said that we can add a few marks in Compre. I have a hunch that I am the lowest in class for EL. *Sigh* But, you see, I have to be able to be up and about though how hard it is. Even if it is reflected in my report book, MAYBE, just maybe, my other grades could pull me up. Oh, there I am! Filling up a huge post about my grades. So, BYE.