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Cause you, only you can ignite the fire in my wilted heart.

I am a dreamer.
A writer.
A person.
A stranger.
A tragedy.
A soul.
A mental psycho.
A thinker.
A believer.
A nightmare.
A perfect disaster.
A closet romantic.
I am emotional.
&& So much more.
Most of all, I'm just me.
 but
i'm the most obnoxious walking contradiction you'll ever find. you don't need to know anything about me— i ' m a m e s s . I'll kick your ass one day.


I love you
you-MY FRIENDS, perhaps my FAMILY and definitely ME
Just call me BINDHU OR BINNY.<3
Sweet melancholy.
Bitter ecstasy.
(:
lyrics: BINNY(:
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PATIENCE '06

Anne-Bestie((:
Megan-Bestie((:
Charyl
Hui Lin
Janel
Lai Sum-Bestie((:
Li En-Bestie((:
Pris-Bestie((:
Sammie
Si Jia
Sher Meen
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[#]natalie;
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LD
Shabbna
Rachel Wan
Bao Yun
Sara Jane
Fanya
Archanna
Sivhanyaa
Priscilla
Delane
Rekha
Danya
Julia
Abigail
Louisa
Robyn
Richa
Anisha
Chevonne

PATIENCE-06<333
1-3'07<3
Wednesday, June 27, 2007

I'VE MOVED. <3

PLEASE, RELINK ME.


with love, Bindhu(:

and in a whirlwind of emotions, I have no idea which are mine.

TODAYYYYYYYYYYY

Chairs arrangement was doopid. My fingers got all rusty. Three classes; 1.1-1.3

BOO.

During Physics, Vonne', Jeanelle, Christa, Ee Lin and I passed notes like good little children. ABOUT HOW HUNGRY WE WERE. HUNGRY BINNY.

Breakkkkkkkkkk. ZOMG. I SAW, SAW, SAW, ____. She is so cute! <3333333! AH. Just thinking about her makes me HIGH(: Yesssss, I am narrow.

History was fool of drawings of Hitler and Emperor's! THEY LOOKED CONSTIPATED. (:
And Jeanelle's pink penn is all horrible and ink dripping. Pfffth.

ZOMG. BREAK FOR THE REST OF THE DAY, MISSED TAMIL! :DDDDDDDDD

Same Break as 1.1, was walking God knows where with Pris, Clara C., Melodi and Izabella, and later Vonne' and Jeanelle. DRAGGED PRIS WITH ME TO SEE ____. SO CUTE.

Ee Lin, Michelle, Lee Min, Kim Ho, Izabella, Pris and Melodi are shorlisted for the run! AHAHAHA. (:

Then, for the stuppppppido CIP thing was running around the circle trying to get people to buy our lousy products. Yes, my friends. THIS IS PROPARGANDA.

JEANELLE TAN YOU CALLED MR TINLEY MR TOOTLEHEAD. YOU WILL PAY FOR THAT, GAY-PERSON(AKA KJH) LOVER.

Rainy days and Mondays always get me down.

By the CARPENERS(:


Binny,
I love you.


with love, Bindhu(:

Tuesday, June 26, 2007
gimme an escape, gimme a reprive, gimme a respite.

I really, really, really think that it's repition. All over again.

So fucking mundane.


with love, Bindhu(:

my strength;my shelter, baby, you're all that.

Art is really boring.

:(

History is OK.

:)

Physics is boring.

:(


with love, Bindhu(:

Monday, June 25, 2007
my, my, my, haven't we changed?

A year ago, I would never have written the things that I write, neither would I lament how immature I was, even at P6. My posts now are very different.

AND CRAP, I HAVE NOT A FUCKING CLUE HOW TO USE WORDPRESS, as I WAS GOING TO SWITCH TO IT SINCE IT'S MUCH NICER.


with love, Bindhu(:

and let the comformity bring us back to reality

School was not as bad as I imagined. Apart from the 2andahalf hour Assembly. Oh yes, we have the Walk-A-Jog on Friday.

DEAR LORD,
I PRAY THAT THERE WILL BE RAIN THE WHOLE DAY ON FRIDAY, THUS CAUSING THIS ICKY EVENT TO NOT TAKE PLACE. AND I HOPE THE TEACHERS HAVE TO GO TO THERE AND THE HORRID ONES WILL GET SPLASHED BY MUD AND WATER. I ALSO PRAY THAT THE CREATOR OF THIS EVENT WILL CEASE TO HAVE SUCH SADISTIC IDEAS IN THE FUTURE.
AMEN.

Jeanelle says everytime she says swim, it rains. Which is why she has been ordered by everyone to say it multiple times.

Was at the canteen in the morning with Nana, Jeanelle, Vonne' and Christa. Exchanged homework. THen went to hall for a VERY long assembly. I swear, I couldn't feel my legs.

There we go again.

Then, we had Contact Time. We filled out forms about how we thought ourselves. I think myself perfect, thankyew very much.

BREAK. <3. Burst out laughing when I SAW PRISCILLA TAN JIA LI SPORTING A PONY TAIL. I KID YOU NOT, PEOPLE WHO KNOW HER AND HAVEN'T SEEN HER YET.

MT NEXT. FUCKING TORTURE.

PHYSICS-Mr Pang is pretty nice. But his way of getting to know is a bit reptitive. OH WELL, HE IS MALE. THEREFORE HE IS EXCUSED. Was being poetic during physics and made up song lyrics.

FREE PERIOD. ZOMG. HAD A BIRD'S EYE VIEW OF SAID PERSON. *SMILE, SMILE*

HISTORY. Whoo. It's pretty fun, but we have homework already. Abso-fucking-loutely gre-fucking-at.

BREAK 2. I admitted to Jeanelle and Yvonne about ________.

MATHS-Mrs Soh is quite nice. I like Maths, but I hated Ms O*G. She was flat too.

HOME<3



And you, my bitter ecstacy have coined your way into me.
And for that,
I can't live with you




Binny*||


with love, Bindhu(:

Sunday, June 24, 2007
fuck, it's starting again, over and over.

I DON'T WANT TO GO TO SCHOOL.


with love, Bindhu(:

Saturday, June 23, 2007
and you're kinda the one that gets my feverish heart beating

I'm not the one who broke you
I'm not the one you should fear
We got to move you, darlin'
I thought I lost you somewhere
But you were never really ever there at all

Here is Gone

GOO GOO DOLLS.











AH!!!!!!!!!!


with love, Bindhu(:

And why'd you have to say all those perfect things?

1. English Book Review.

2. English Comprehension.

3. Newspaper Articles.

4. Math worksheet

5. TamilProject
HALFWAY DONE, DAMMIT. CONQUER.


with love, Bindhu(:

WHYYYYYYYY IS SCHOOL RE-OPENING?

Why do birds suddenly appear
Every time you are near?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you



I cannot stand it.
I hate you.


SCHOOL, YOU WILL BE THE DEATH OF ME.

Oh, no. I do adore my friends.

BUT NOT LESSONNNNNS.



OOOOOOR TEACHERS



Out with my fake emo posts. I am happy now.


(:



I hate school.
fuck




I LOVE LOVE YOU.
YOU know who you are.


with love, Bindhu(:

Friday, June 22, 2007

OH, BUGGERING BOLLOCKS.



Always wanted to say that. SODDING hell. It's near the end of the holidays and I haven't done anything I have set out today. My goals for next term.

1. ENGLISH, MUST MUST MUST UP TO A1. A2 IS NOT GOOD ENOUGH.


2. MATHS, IF I DON'T MAINTAIN MY A1 WILL DIE.


3. TAMIL, WILL TRY, TRY, TRY TO MAINTAIN A B3 OR UPPPPP TO A2. NOT A CHANCE.


4. HISTORY, A2. I WANT, WANT, WANT TO DO WELL CAUSE IT INTRIGUES ME.



5. PHYSICS, WILL GET A B3. SCIENCE HAS NEVER BEEN MY STRONG SUIT.


6. ART. I DON'T CARE.













Everything's Eventual, my dear, dear, cynical friend*


with love, Bindhu(:

Thursday, June 21, 2007

I was an idiot for thinking you would be different.


with love, Bindhu(:

But I'll wait right here till its my turn.

I am just going to randomly shuffle my playlist.

AND FUCK YOU, YOU HAD BETTER GIMME A GOOD SONG.

Please don't tell her, it is.

Whatever, I have no temper to take flight of the vapid musings of AVRIL LAVIGNE. Shit yeah.

Emma is a good book, and Mr Knightely is an engima as any. *Adopts posh accent* MR KNIGHTELY. I think it's not very advisable to fall, and fall, and fall for the characters. All of them. How fickle.

Its due time that I start returning your phone calls, cause I discarded you like one would discard their once-only-once-worn clothes. And you're the one I talk to most unreserved.

WHAT THE HELL IS THIS DUDE BLOODY SAYING?

No, this child will listen to all the songs shuffled. Be stong, small flyermonkey.

OH, MY GOD. I am now listening to how Avril Lavigne wears the pants. DUDE. It's getting to my ears. I just changed where the shuffled songs come from, from my TOP 25 MOST PLAYED.


GWEN STEFANI, YOUR SWEET ESCAPE IS MY RESPITE.


THANKYEW.
THANKYEW.



iTunes.






"If I could escpe."

I like the Jane Austen style. It's highly addictive. As are her heros. Who are all utterly delicious. Yes, they are.

I definitely like P&P more, cause MR DARCY IS LIKE RICHER! (: But. Really, maybe because it's so publicesed. Maybe even overrated. WAIT. I DID NOT SAY THAT. SHUT ME UP.














MICH AND I ARE WEB-CAMING. SEE YA.


with love, Bindhu(:

Just realised something.


I am horribly naive.

Anyway, I asked my sister why people use Mascara, and she said to lengthen and darken your lashes. So I couldn't resist adding,"so, Chinese use it alot, yeah?" and she said," I guess so, yeah."




GOT WIMBELDON, SOME JAPANESE MOVIE AND ER. SOME OLDIES MOVIE FROM VIDEO EZY.


with love, Bindhu(:

Wednesday, June 20, 2007

Books I want:
(CLASSICS FIRST. A MUST, MUST, MUST, MUST, MUST.)
Jane Austen
Persuasion.
Sense and Sensibility
Northanger Abbey
Lady Susan
Love and Friendship
Mansfield Park
(I have Emma and Pride and Prejudice.)
Charles Dickens
David Copperfield
Great Expectations
Oliver Twist
Holiday Romance

STEPHEN KING
Cell
The Gunslinger

The Bronte Sisters
Villette-Charlotte Bronte
The Professor-Charlotte Bronte
The Tenant of Wildfell Hall-Anne Bronte
Agnes Grey-Anne Bronte
(Read Wuthering Heights adn I have Jane Eyre. ;D)


H.G.Wells
Ann Veronica
In the Days of the Comet
The Island of Dr. Moreau
The First Men in the Moon
The Invisible Man
The History of Mr. Polly
When the Sleeper Wakes
The Time Machine
Tono-Bungay
The War in the Air
The War of the Worlds


Chocolate War-Robert Cormier
The Importance of Being Earnest-Oscar Wilde
Strange Fate-L.J.Smith
The Midnighters-Scott Westerfeld
Clockwork Orange-Anthony Burgess
Deception Point-Dan Brown

NOW, FOR CHICK LITS. DO NOT CONFUSE WITH FEMINIST LITS.

1) A collection of trashy romance novels to read when I am feeling down, and unlike Jane Austen cause I'll just feel jealous that those Mr's are so fucking charming.

2) Meg Cabot's haunted series.

3) I want Newsletter weekly. I want to keep up on the latest political happenings.



YES, I KNOW JANE AUSTEN, STEPHEN KING, H.G. WELLS, THE BRONTE SISTERS AND CHARLES DICKENS ARE ALL HORRIBLY OVER PUBLISIZED, BUT THEY'RE STYLES ARE ALL INTRIGUING.




GET ME ALL THIS FOR MY BIRTHDAY, AND I WILL LOVE YOU FOREVER, AND FOREVER.


with love, Bindhu(:


Went out with Charyl to Tampinese Mall today. And I finally got the full story about my "chio-ness." Go figure.

SURF'S UP IS SUCH AN ADORABLE MOVIE. I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE THE PENGUINS.



AND THE CHICKEN.


AND THE POINTY THINGY.


AND THE SMALL, SMALL BIRD. (HAHA. THAT SOUNDS GROSS.)

















Whoo.





































so, maybe you're still


with love, Bindhu(:

Tuesday, June 19, 2007

Your Vocabulary Score: B

You have a zealous love for the English language, and many find your vocabulary edifying.
Don't fret that you didn't get every word right, your vocabulary can be easily ameliorated!



A B.


Fuck.


with love, Bindhu(:

Dear lord, their sexy.




*smiles*




ACCENTS. BRITISH.


with love, Bindhu(:

Christa came over today. I'll upload the pictures later.



(:


with love, Bindhu(:

Monday, June 18, 2007

This has been a fruitful day. I have finished P&P and will move on to Sense & Sensibility. Though, I do want to read Emma as well. And it would be my deepest melancholy to not be able to read it.

Just watched the Harry Potter trailer. Que screeching. AH. I LOVE YOU, DRACO MALFOY. You're my favourite git. <333333


with love, Bindhu(:

Sunday, June 17, 2007

Took a really long shower. Cause I was reading Darcy's letter in the shower. HOW ELOQUENT IS HE!


with love, Bindhu(:

I woke up at 10 today. Which is in improvement, since I have been waking up at 11 these past few weeks.


with love, Bindhu(:


I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you
I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
And I don't know what I'm diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you


You do that to me, and you don't even know.


with love, Bindhu(:

HE'S SO HOT, CAN!!!


































*SCREAMS* (:


with love, Bindhu(:

I just sent Jeanelle an SMS in reply to her "I can stand arrogance to a certain degree."
"Yes. But when coupled with male chauvenism I am unable to stand the sheer magnitude of frivolous stupidity."



I love Darcy. So sexy.


with love, Bindhu(:

Saturday, June 16, 2007

1. name: Bindhu
2. username: er. e-mail?
3. nick: Binny
4. what color (a skittle) would you be: red
5. chinese zodiac: dog
6. horoscope: scorpio
7. hair color: black
8. eye color: black
9. height: 1.51
10. fave color: green
11. Glasses: yeah
12. braces: soon
13. piercing/tattoos(permanenet or non): ears, one on each side(thinking of getting more)
14. pet: I hate animals.
15. postal code: I'm not even sure.
Have you ever-
16. cut you own hair?: yeah..
17. did something you regretted: YES!
18. hugged someone of no relationship (in blood) with you: yep
19. skipped school?: yes
20. Bungee jump?: I want to.
21. jump off a building?: Em. Is that a trick question?
22. dumped someone?: I'm too nice.
23. TP’d someone’s house?: COULD I?
24. Been arrested?: no..
25. won something?: yes
26. been rejected?: Yes. and it felt like shit.
27. been to a funeral?: yes!
28. used a lighter?: yes?
29. been on stage?: yepps(:
-Favourites-
30. Season: WINTER <3
31. food: PIZZA
32. icecream flavor: chocolate!
33. school subject: maths
34. Person: my friends
35. Books: fantasy(and sometimes trashy romance novels)
36. Movies: chick flicks
37. songs: I'm not picky
38. park: I hate greenery.
39. state: PARIS.
40. sport to watch: Where they take off shirts? (HINTHINT)
41. place: Room
42. bands: alot
43. letters in alphabets: B
44. restaurants: I'm not picky
45. cartoon/anime characters: SPONGEYBOBBY
46. tv Stations: MTV, Starworld and Disney
47. name for a son: Jennifer
48. name for a daughter: Daniel
do you prefer-
49. Chocolate or Vanilla or StrawBerry?: CHOCOLATE(:
50. long relationships or long friendship?: It depends.
51. dogs or cats or hamsters: CATS!
52. horror flicks or comedys or love stories or dramatic but educational or real life biographys: *smiles guiltily*
53. short or long hair: short
54. croutons or bacon: bacon
55. kissing or hugging: hugging
-first thing that comes into your mind-
56. Mexico: a funky lil hat
57. school: hell
58. Grass: green
59. Cows: moo!
60. Canada: stupid people
61. Mouse: mickey
62. Hands: caloused
-the past 48 hours, have you-
63. watched a movie?: yes
64. talked on the phone?: yes
65. cried?: no
66. threw up?: no
67. drank a glass of water?: yes
68. done drugs?: no!!
69. read a book or magazine?: yes
70. watched TV?: uh ya
71. looked in the mirror?: (:
72. taken a shower?: yes
73. taken picture with others or yourself?: THE CAM WHORE.
74. listened to music?: DUH
75. kissed someone?: no?
76. told someone you liked them?: nope...
77. thought of any guy or gal?: yes.



CREDITS. LIEN AND JANEL.

<3 YOU.


with love, Bindhu(:

Amazing what happened when he, bad boy extrodinaire, tried to seduce Paige, hardworking, meticulous. And who would have thought that he would fall, lock, stock and barrel, in love with her?

Kenneth knew it would happen, the asshole.

And she, she thought he was crazy when he told her. She rejected him.

Kenneth knew it would happen, knew that would happen too.

Amazing what happened when she, good girl and resident lip reader, was seduced by Donavan, intelligant, and bad news. Who would have thought he she would fall, lock, stock and barrel, in love with him?

Elaine knew it would happen, the idiot.

And he, mocked her by telling her.

Elaine knew it would happen, knew that would happen too.


with love, Bindhu(:

Friday, June 15, 2007

Gimme the words and I'll say them like I mean it
Cause the amber flame has been extinguished.






I watched a Stephen King movie with my sister yesterday. Seriously. Stephen King is a disturbed man.

Who else could think of such morbid plot lines???







"Danny boy, don't be a fool, take upon to break a rule."


with love, Bindhu(:

I like shiny.

I need to occupy my time well. Or I will go crazy. There is no doubt about that. And Blogger is pissing me off. I can't change the colour of my crap, and neither can I change the font.






DIE BLOGGER.


with love, Bindhu(:

Thursday, June 14, 2007

All I can see is you.









And this is why I'm going out of my mind.


with love, Bindhu(:

"There you are, standing right in front of me."

I just came back from GRAMMA HOUSIE. I was writing all the lyrics to Signal fire on fat asses' whiteboard. Yes, my cousin's name is fat ass.

Don't ask.

"I'm closer to where I started, chasing after you."


with love, Bindhu(:

Wednesday, June 13, 2007

I need a good fic.



I NEED ONE.

This is not a matter of choice. Without it, I swear, I will end my life. I NEED NEED NEED NEED NEED NEED a good fic.

It's like my chocolate.

Oh, I want chocolate too. But I'll settle for a fic. Since... IT IS SO RARE THAT I FIND A GOOD ONE!

Yes, you can see how frustrated I am. WHY WON'T NO ONE POST SOMETHING GOOD? If I could write, I would post!

I am aching to pick up L.J.Smith and read about the perfect males, with their suave moves and Don Juan good looks. BUT THAT'LL GIMME LESS COMPUTER TIME. *Wails*



oh, god help help me.


with love, Bindhu(:

OH, God. I have a splitting headache. I have no idea why.

Sometimes, I wonder why.


with love, Bindhu(:

Tuesday, June 12, 2007

You make me laugh, you make me cry. You make me hate myself, you make me hate you. You make me heart race and make it jump to my throat.


with love, Bindhu(:

Back with my psuedo-emo posts.
Jeez. Was watching Falcon Beach, and I re-read the post I posted earlier. I don't understand them. Ew. Males are mutants. AHA. They even have the same first letter. Proof.

Somehow, I highly doubt my mother will be as nice as she was yesterday when I was using the computer yesterday. Call it 6th sense or something. I want to get out, and not just by tamil tuition, either.

I need an outlet for my frustrations(no, they are not life-threatening, and NO, I am not depressed). And I highly doubt that this blog is the cartheris.

My diary kinda is though. But I would not call it a diary. Seriously. My ramblings are reduced to 2, or if I am feeling particularly literary, 3 per week.

And the random drawings? AAHAHA. They're doodles. But I must admit, I enjoy scribbling on my book with a couple of coloured markers. And I even write stories. Which resemble ones which are written by five year olds.

And as for my tamil. I am going crazy worrying about this project. And for my two english articles? I can't find them. Seriously.

I can feel my grasp of english slipping away. What with me punctuating every effing sentences with expletives and Singlish. Trying to wring my own neck. Not working.

I NEED a good fic. I need one. ZOMG.

I was reading through some of my old journals, and this came about:

"Like ew. I tink tht she is an f***ing b****. Y can't she die??? I dun like her at all, can?"

Kill me now. GAWD, I can't believe I wrote that. Imagine my pure look of horror when I read that.

Online, I was telling Michelle all the guys whom I like. Like crush. And all the girls I crush. Oomph. SHE'S GONNA MAKE ME A COLLAGE WITH HOT GUYS. I LOVE YOU!

I was also arguing with Jeanelle the weirdo about KJH. She truly believes that he is hot. That poor delusional soul. He IS GAY. Faggot. Queer. He likes to play kinky games with other men.

I also found this hillarious slammin' website. But I am waaaaaaaay to lazy to type the URL out.




"And I wondered, over and over again. Cause all I could think about was you."


with love, Bindhu(:

EFFING HELL!!!!!!!!!
THEY. ARE. HAVING. BLOODY. SEX. ON. THE. BEACH.


Not that he didn't take his previous girlfriend there either. But he's in bloody love with her. And he has bloody sex with her there. Males are retarded.

Said previous girlfriend is with current girlfriend's brother. And they are in love.

First "he"'s best friend's girlfriend and him are in effin' love and all.

Perfect, eh???

FIRST COUPLE: screwed up like hell.
Her family is in ruins. And all he wants to do is have sex with her. I marvel at how one track minded males are.

SECOND COUPLE: Their druggies. DUDE. The guy also detests first guys guts. For: going out with second guy's sister. And having gone out with second guys girl.

THIRD COUPLE: She's pregnant. Enough said.

Oh, well. Their hot.


with love, Bindhu(:

Monday, June 11, 2007

Name 10 ppl you can think of right off the top of your head.
Don't read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 10 people.
This is a lot funnier if you actually randomly list the names 1st. No cheating!
1.Clara S.<3
2.Jeanelle<3
3.Carissa<3
4.Yvonne<3
5.Nanthini<3(even if she thinks she's a sexy mama!)
6.Christa<3
7.Pris<3
8.Ee Lin<3
9.Clara C.<3
10.Anisha<3

How'd you meet 3? Same class for 4 years. Unfortunately. AHAHA.
What would you do if you had never met number 1? Be alot saner. Dunno...
What would you do if 6 and 2 were going out? Heh. Jeanelle is absorbed with KJH enough.
Have you ever seen 4 cry? No. Pffth. Get mad, yes. But not cry.
Where did you meet number 10? We're family friends, darling.
How do you know 8? Same class. I LOVE YOU, EE LIN. <3 peace.
What do you think about 7? Happy. Smart. O.o. and she <333 me. And she can get REAL moody.
What would you do if 5 confessed they loved you? Nani HAS told me that she loves me, and I love her too. AS A FRIEND.
A fact/or something about 9? She's obsessed with GB, Audi and Maple.
Who is 2 going out with? KJH. SHE WISHES!
What's 4 do for a living? Be a nutter?
Would you ever live with number 8? She'd kick me out. I have the worst habits.
Where does 3 live? Croucher road. MAN, her house is nice. (:
What do you like about number 1? She's quirky. <3
Do you miss number 3? Yeah. Haven't seen her since March.
What is your opinion of number 5? Boy crazy nut. But she's a good friend!
10 a power ranger? Ani, are you. I know she used to watch them with me when we were wittle kiddies!


with love, Bindhu(:

My new found companian, Mr Vicks Inhaler does not serve as good company. He is a tad bit stupid, and the only thing he talks about is cold.

Yes.

I made friends with an inhaler.

My nose is severly blocked. Like really, really, really blocked. i can't smell or taste anything. Wait, I think I SHOULD stop complaining. I should.

But I shan't.

Seriously. It's been 2 weeks and my tamil has not been done. And I think Chris Evans is uber YUMMY.


with love, Bindhu(:

Who knew I could cry this much...???
Reading Marauders Era angst. Wow. All of those fics where they contemplate their friendship. Damn, I start tearing up.



James, Sirius and Remus are hot. OK, Bindhu, think of cheerful things. (: I feel like drinking tea. Don't ask.


with love, Bindhu(:

God, my head is throbbing. I yearn for Snow Patrol and its' mellow vibes, but it is simply a catalyst for the pain.

So, my throat is not hurting. It's just this inspid itch that wants to be scratched. But is physically impossible.

My nose is all icky and my ears keep popping whenever I sneeze. I don't want to sleep, it's inexplicably hot. I want an air conditioned surrounding, but that would just be ridiculous. My nose will clog up and make me wanna die.

Last whole night, till about 2 I was using the computer, and slept for a bout an hour and a half. After that, I read. Read the books that are yellow and tearing. That's how many times I have read it in the past 3 years.

"You were never really here."


with love, Bindhu(:

Sunday, June 10, 2007

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!


I <33333333333333333 MY SISTER.










She just gave me CANDY EMPIRE.

Next time I go, I must remember to get hre something.

















CAANDY
CANNNNNNNNNNDY
CANNNDYYYY IS DANDY. (:


with love, Bindhu(:

My head is spinning. Ow. I guess I shouldn't be complaining. I feel sticky and icky but I don't want to bathe.

It takes too much energy. And I need something to read, not something to watch. But whatever I read makes my head spin and my heart go down.

I want to be in a cool place. I need a bath.


with love, Bindhu(:

Saturday, June 09, 2007

Rules of game:
1: Each player of this game starts off with 10 weird things or habits or little known facts about yourself.
2: People who got tagged must write in their own blog and state this rule clearly.
3: At the end of the game, list down some people to be tagged and NO TAGBACKS!!!


1)I wonder if people like to pee in the shower.
2)I always think that when I am walking, I will fall.
3)When I bathe, I can't stand the heat. When I am out of the shower, I yearn for it.
4)When people compliment me, I have no idea what to say.
5)I can't stand people who subtly boast about themselves.
6)When I read fanfics, my heart beats for the characters.
7)I fear not knowing.
8)I can twist baby suck thinga magees in my mouth.
9)I enjoy making people that I don't like hurt, then feel so guilty afterwards.
10)I hate myself sometimes almost all the time.


with love, Bindhu(:

RULES:
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!!!

"IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY", YOU SAY?"
Watch me go.
"WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?"
Larger than life. (LOL!)
"WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY?"
Today, tonight.
"HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?"
When I look at the stars.
"WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?"
This is how you remind me.
"WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?"
The Engine Driver(right.)
"WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?"
Back at one.
"WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?"
Everlong.
"WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?"
Patience.(Yepps. I think of 6 PATIENCE. <3)
"WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BESTIES?"
Forsaken.
"WHAT DO THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?"
Someone to love.(hey, that answer is perfect.)
"WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?"
You were the last high.
"WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?"
Big as the sky. (:
"WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?"
Everytime we touch. (that makes sense. eh.)
"WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?"
Sad song.(WHAT???)
"WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?"
Kiss from a rose. (awwww.)
"WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?"
I dare you to move.(move from your <333 for me!)
"WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTERST?"
I hate everything about you. (HAHA.)
"WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?"
Please don't tell her. (or that'll be a him"
"WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?"
Note to God. (oh, I did, did I?)
"WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?"
Photograph.
"WHAT SONG WILL BE IT WHEN YOU REPOST?"
Rape me.




EW.
EW.
EW.
EW.
EW.
EW
EW.
EW.
EW.


with love, Bindhu(:

Pissed.









So, you think that you can just leave?
_____________________________________________________________________________________

Ok, I need to forget about _____________. I need a chick flick to pick me up. One with a repulsivly happy ending. Or maybe that'll just bring me down.


with love, Bindhu(:

One friend dying, excruciatingly painful

Three friends dying, all consuming despair


Three friends dying at the hands of a fourth friend, how can it even be explained?




Reading a Remus fic now. Doesn't that explain his feelings? I love him.
OH, DURING TUITION, TEACHERS 3 MONTH OLD GRANDDAUGHTER WAS THERE.


<33333333333333333333333



Like, zOmG.


SO CUTTTTTTTTTE.

She was drooling and EVERYTHING. THen she smiled.










She is pretty big for a 3 month old, though. But still fluffy.


with love, Bindhu(:

Friday, June 08, 2007

ON A SCALE.
This falls over as stupid.
Fucking STUPID.


with love, Bindhu(:

In the conclusion,
within the shattered illusion,
her shattered soul lay deep,
the unbridled passion,
the intimate love,
the sweet, sweet remembrance,
gone.

No way, one way, forever,
there had been many choices,
each full of hope and despair,
yet he chose that path
and in turn hurt himself.

No where feels like home,
she yearned for solitude,
for a respite.
A home to embrace,
a love to look forward to,
Death to be steeled by.

His heart in antilock,
his anguish in rapture,
his everything.


I know it's fucking lousy, buuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuut, I need a form of putting my frustrations.

________________________________________________________________________

Expert from diarY.


"Clara paced the room worridely. She was standing outside the sterile white room. The clean, starkness of her surroundings did none to placate her. Her dear friend was making the transition from Supergirl to Superwoman. Bindhu, was a creature of pure perfection."


AFTER READING THIS, CLARA GROANED. CLARA, YOU LOVE ME, YOU REALLY DO.



MY SEXAY LOVE<333
DONKEY.
PUSS IN BOOTS.
ARTY.
LOVE YOU.



AND JEANELLE-Y, KJH IS UGLY AND GAY.




















Binny
{God knows, you've got me sewn}


with love, Bindhu(:

"I do belive I love you."

Just had tamil tuition. GAHS. How I abhor tamil. Quite sure I am going to fail it in the long run, so why bother?

AH BU--. I want to go out.

I want NEED out.

I NEED A RESPITE TOO.





I need a good fic to read, to help me occupy my time.

I'm a hard core:

LILY/JAMES SHIPPER<33333
RON/HERMIONE SHIPPER<33333
TONKS/REMUS SHIPPER<33333


I think those couples are adorable. I do enjoy Harry/Ginny as well. I once read a ship: RON/RON.

I couldn't stop laughing.

I WISH I COULD BE GAY WITH MYSELF.]



[and you're my signal fire.'


with love, Bindhu(:

Thursday, June 07, 2007

Wow. It seems I have made a habit of using the com till the wee hours, and take a bath. I don't know. I feel kinda scared in the shower. I have no idea. And I heard this crash before I went in. But I just went in.

Whatever.



GOALS FOR NEXT TERM:
1. English-A1

I have to put my best foot forward and simply do better for it. I know, I can. I have the "potential". Or maybe I don't. But I have to get it. I feel so upset just knowing that my grasp for the language is slipping away.

2. Math-A1
From 80.6 to 85. I really need to maintain my A1. It's just this fear that I have. I know my Math is pretty good, definitely not the best. And sometimes I feel utterly guilty. Those people, who worked so hard for it. They failed. Whatever. I have to keep the constant 80's.

3. Tamil-A2
I hate myself for not trying to do my tamil-but I see no point. My brave facade of being proud of getting a B3 is in shatters. I don't understand a single word. Yet, I will press on. I must get an A2 for it. I know people might abstain against it. But. Hey. I need to put myself a grade forward, yeah? i DOUBT I can get an A2, but what the hell.

4. Physics-B4
I obtained an acceptable B3 for Bio and a degrading C5 for Chem. So, I figure, just put the grade in between. For what its worth, I know my Science sucks.

5. History-A2
I want one. Its not just the fact that the subject intrigues me, it's cause of the idea of doing well in a well thought boring subject. Oh well, Li En and Charmaine said that they like it. I trust their judgements.

6. Art-B4
For all those negligable subjects, I want a constant B4. Screw it, I don't care. It's just fucking ART.


Oh, and my personal goal is to stop swearing. Like I could. I do realise that many of the 6 Pa girls look at my blog, and are surprised about the change in the way I speak, the way I blog.

Well, I guess we all have changed. The 6 Pa spirit is dwindling, the blog is dead. So, how about just laying off, yeah???


It's a Friday Morning, and I'm still here.



"You look at me, curious about what I'm made up."


with love, Bindhu(:

YAY! JEANELLE IS BACK.

I LOVE YOU, JEANELLE.

<333333







Thanks for getting me a present, and thanks for describing that hot guy for me!!!


I <3 YOU!



Bindhu.


with love, Bindhu(:

I slept for 2 hours today. I have no idea why. I was thinking about going to shower in while, then the next thing I know it's two hours later. And on top of that, my friend invited me to go out with her mom and her and do some thing. And I declined.

God, I am such a spaz. I can't stand not hearing people. AH. Reprive. I need one, I desperetely need one. I don't care where.

I cannot, for the life of me, find my hair band. And so my hair is all over my face. My fringe has grown a considerable length, therefore driving me to the point where I need one. SHIT.

So I have to settle for using my sister's one. It's so frustrating. I want a new iPod. Mine has the limited 2GB capacity. Maybe I should beg for a video and not a nano? Sometimes I feel so guilty for being so spoilt. And sometimes I don't.




You were never there at all.


with love, Bindhu(:

Wednesday, June 06, 2007

"Till the day, this I promise you."

Wow. Woke up really early in the morning. Like 8.20. Because my aunt/tutor was coming to torture teach me. Ergh. And I arranged for it to be in an unearthly hour because I was going to go out.

BUT. My parents grounded me. For some reason or another. Oh, well. I'm so lazy to do my Tamil, and the clock is ticking. 2 weeks is coming to an end, and I still have not even started a word of it.

And for my two english articles, I can't find 10 words! Not saying that my english is "pro". But I sincerely cannot find ten words that baffle me. Ah. Here I go with my complaining.

The Nanny is something that I am getting addicted to again. I was lovestruck with it in 2005 and 2006. I liked Mr Sheffield, the handsome heir. Three guesses why.

I need to get out. I need to. To escape from reality. A reprive. Just to.. get away from my family. A day with my friends, perhaps? I would like to go shopping, kinda. But how long till the novelty that I am spending money wears off? Besides, after the first hour I get tired and irritable.

I enjoy it as much as the next girl, but not too much. It'll postively drive me crazy. Besides, I might just need a handfull of captivating fics, and you've got me all strung. Yepp, the way to this girl's heart is books.

Sometimes, when I listen to songs, or read something, I feel like crying. Now, when I first listen to a song lyrics properly, and it's something out of a love quote and stuff, I get all sappy.

Yeah. The sad truth about me. And when I read such a sweet and fluffy fic, the smile on my face will not diminish still I see my sisters face. But when I read sad fics, I can't help it. I feel like crying.


"Gimme a song, and I'll sing it like I mean it."


with love, Bindhu(:

I didn't have anything to do, so I took a bath. Yes, see the sad life of Bindhu.
Shrek was great! But there was some parts, where only my cousin, my mother and I were laughing. My cousin sized it up as that the movie was very "Americanised" and since my mother and I are psuedo-American, and cousin dearest studies in the States, we got the jokes.

I really loved the part where the bra was burnt. When my male cousin(not the aforementioned one) said that he liked that part, we were intriuged. Could he actually comprehend that act?

Alas, the conclution is: Males are dumb. Idiot did not get it.

FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO ARE BLISSFULLY IGNORANT I SHALL ENLIGHTEN YOU.

It symbolises FEMINISIM. Since in the 60's as an act of reballion feminists protested by not wearing bras and refusing to shave. Since males invented corsets, they invented bras. DOWN WITH THEM.

During that part, I WAS LIKE: YOU GO GIRLS! ahahahahahaha.

I also enjoyed the part where shrek tried to relate with Arty, who is hot. Yes, I am saying an animation is hot. AHAHA. DONKEY IS MY SEXAY LOVE(:! PUSS IN BOOTS IS MY HOT LOVE(:!


Peace]

Wednesday.


with love, Bindhu(:

Tuesday, June 05, 2007

I can't stand the fact that I need you. Not want you, but I actually need you. And it erks me so.



Screw it all.


with love, Bindhu(:

I had it all planned out in my head. The perfect outing, meeting, the wonderful parting, the laughter. Yet, with all it's imperfections it was fun.

I reached Serangoon MRT at 1, on schedule. Punctuality and I have a rather love-hate relationship. The moment I am late, when I see my phone clock, which is 10 min early, I proceed to panic.

Alas, Clara arrived 10 min late. FANTASTIC TIMING, THAT ONE! We contemplated our journey and decided that we would go to Orchard.

We arrived there, we were slightly late, but it was OK. Our periless journey began when we took the wrong exit. Well, thats an exaggeration. But the outing's timings changed after that.

Walking the stretch of malls, we came across Centrepoint and the Haagan Dazz dazzled our eyes. In all its' ice-cream glory. We decided to eat at a Singapore Declicacy eatery where we split the cost of food.

We walked for a bit, wondering what normal teenagers did at Orchard when they went there. Apart from shopping till they dropped of course. What a fit our parents would throw if they found us frivolously spending hordes of money on clothes!

Ridiculous. Note the sarcasm.

Giggles.

Whatever, chica.

Finally, we decided to gorge ourselves at the aforementioned Haagan Dazz. 9.90, but it was worth every penny. Bet your salivating now, huh?

We took MRT back to PS, where we walked to Cenelisure. Or however you spell it. AHAHAA.

We watched a Japanese film, Hula Girls. I quite liked it. I thought the movie would be cheap and ridiculous at first, but then as it proceeded, I was glad the movie rid itself of cliches, but left the ending open ended.

We took MRT back, but not before Clara fell down. A kind soul gave her three of those sticky things to put on your cut.

WHAT???!!!!!

I forgot what it is called, OKAY???

We took many pictures there, and Clara still has about a quater of them, I think. As soon as they are uploaded onto the com, I shall put it here. I KNOW HOW YOU LONG TO SEE MY PURRTY-FACE.




"Perfect words never crossed my mind, cause there was nothing in there but you."



PICS!

I am smiling like a dork.



IN THIS ONE TOO!




My ---- smile!!!


Either we saw something REAL interesting, or we are just plain weird. Or Clara is.





My pensive look. What was CLARA DOING???




Our egocentric, egoistic, narcissitic, self-absorbed selves! Well, the egoistic one... CLARA.



OK, OK, I too have one. BUT... I rock. So therefore, that is negligable.



We're pouting. Or at least I am attempting to. Clara's got it DOWNNN.




What adorably silly smiles we've got!




Talk about unglam.



And karma is a bitch. Bit me right back on my ass.





♥|| Bindhu-liciOUS.(: || I just want you to know who I am. says:
Why are all of these OF me?
Lorong Halus has died. says:
I just click the random one and they are of YOU.
Lorong Halus has died. says:
eeyer.
Love you too, darling. >.="




GOH BEE HOON. Ah, P3 Love&P4 Love memories!!!




DON'T ASK.




Whoo. Too bothersome to put all of them up.



TATA.


with love, Bindhu(:

Monday, June 04, 2007

Cos you got my heart in a headlock
You stopped the blood and made my head soft
And god knows
You got me sewn


Jeez, I don't want to admit it, but you do. Somewhere along the line, you did. I don't know if it is my lack of social life, or what you got me doing.

Ha. If you read this, you'll laugh your puny head off. Stupid asshole. Feeling so restless. I don't know if I want to go out, I have to go hop into the shower, and then change into my clothes. I feel so lethargic. But I do want to meet Clara S., since I have not seen her in a long time.

I don't want my posts to paint a false sense of maturity, which I doubt that they do. But I don't want to portray a woebegone thirteen year old, who thinks that her problems are larger than life. Whatever.

I am kind of frustrated with my iTunes and iPod. How stupid of me was it to buy a useless 2GB iPod, when I could be contented with my 5GB Creative? Though, the Creative was a heap of worthless junk, no doubt, costing only $200+. Wheress, Doppelganger dearest costs the same whopping amount, with less space.

Go, on say it. I know you want to. "Oh, how the mighty have fallen." I know you, you love rubbing it into my face.

I need new music. Perhaps I should venture into the unknown, and tear my ears out listening to Hilary D---. Well, copyright laws. You know. How I get my songs is not exactly honest. Oh, well. If I get caught. Only a few hundred is actually _______. Oh, God. Ignore I said that.

Sometimes, when I read peoples blogs, I am shocked to see how different their literal selves are adrift from their portrayed selves. And how well some write. I can never compare up to my seniors, be it from LD or otherwise. I seriously have no talent for writing.

Yet I feel liberated when I do. Whatever.

I shall submit to the demands of my less than eloquent peers and modulate my words as theirs.

Wah lou, eh. You know, ah?

Which translates to: Geez! You know...?

I'm such an arrogant heinous bitch. Oh, well, now to face up to the heat.

And that my friends is a proper goodbye.


[Somehow, we lost ourselves. ]]


with love, Bindhu(:

Sunday, June 03, 2007

WOAH.

"and I tried my best to let go of you"

Binny is going to Gramma's house after this(:
Good food. <3
Pesky younger cousins to bully(;
WHOO.



BINNY(: LOVES<3 YOU!(:


with love, Bindhu(:

"And I hate when things are over."


Woah. AHAHAHA. (:






Friendship.
The word that bound them together, cast around them, a cacoon of love and protection. He loved his best friend, his brother dearly. And he was stuck with a predicament. Cast away those loyalties, gain fame and single handedly be the cause for the world's most wanted man being caught.
Or, for old loyalties to draw a line, embedded within him, not unlike the fierce protectiveness his brother posessed.
He put his head in his hands, contemplating his next move, calculating his next mistake. He knew it would all fall down onto this. The woman he loved was on the other side, full of promises. His once only savior on this side, hatching a diabolical plan.









AH. BINDHU. IS. FRUSTRATED.


with love, Bindhu(:

Right now, I'm obsessed with OLDIES.

Not just remixes.

Stone Temple Pilots
The wonders
Deep Blue Something
The Beetles
Jimmy Hendrix
Led Zepplin
Frankie Vallie





AH! OBSESSED.
Especially with "Deep Blue Something". I love breakfast at Tiffany's.


I LOVE THE THEN BOYBANDS TOO!


TAKE THAT.
ALL 4 ONE.





OH, GEEZ.



My favourite CONTEMPORARY singer is Michael Buble. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. And he sings old songs. Maybe I should tune in the radio and listen to the mishaps that are played, not batting an eye at the incoridgible, incessant tunes.



OR. MAYBE. I SHOULD BE SHINY.


Whatever.






I LOVE STEPHEN KING!(The author)


zOMG.



Haha. Who reads Stephen King at thirteen twelve?










"Hate me or love me"

Binny*||


with love, Bindhu(:

Friday, June 01, 2007

Music: Fuck it, don't want you back.
Web: Fictionpress
Books:
The Black Book of Secrets-F.E.Higgins
Everything's Eventual-Stephen King
You don't love me-Jonathan Lethem

____________________________________

YES.

READING ALL THOSE BOOKS AT THE SAME TIME. I have this knack to be able to not confuse stories and books.


KNOW WHY???
CAUSE I'VE GOTTEN USED TO IT.


"You don't know what I feel."

Don't you ever wonder who this elusive "you" the artist is talking about? Someone that left them spell bound, enchanted and captivated or someone who mercilessly tore apart their heart. Or someone who is not unlike someone out of those oh-so-perfect cliched romances, with heart-felt words and sweet nothings?



I think that I think too much about it. Whatever.


But, really. Who is this "you" being referred to? Is the artist speaking from bittersweet memories of ones poignant with passion? And when they release their emotions, evicted of guilt, do they ever wonder what the "you" will say?

Sure, if it is a song, brimming with sweet "I-love-yous" and wonderful words, their hearts will ablaze. But what if they realise that those strong, powerful emotions are towards them?

Won't it be so cool to hold such emotions in your fragile hands? To be able to posess such PAZAZ as to influence peoples moods. Ah. The power of music.

and "I love yous".


I am such a closet romantic.


















thanks for the memories, even though they weren't so great.


with love, Bindhu(:

HAHAHAAHHAA.
SO HIGH NOW(:

WENT OUT WITH SARAH.

I <333333333333333 YOU.





WHOO.

62 WAS LATE. He is obnoxious. I shall tell you further horrible stories about it. Burn bitch. Met Sarah. She loves me. Yes, she does.

We took 53. YAY! We immersed ourselves in the cool chilliness for half an hour. Then we went to gourge ourselves. LIKE THE PIGS THAT WE ARE! We originally wanted to watch a movie, but we had both watched all the movies. WAHOO. So, Sarah and I proceeded to the MINITOONS. AND SHE GOT PRESSIES. For her wittle sister and wittle cousie. SO SWEET. NOT.

Neoprints time! I look retarded in everyone of them. Yes, Bindhu is NOT photogenic(???). omG!!! CLARA JUST TOLD ME THAT ORLANDO BLOOM IS GOING TO RECORD A COLLECTION OF LOVE SONGS!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

I am on cloud eight. Or was it nine...? WHATEVER.

We went to the bookstore after that. And we were reading this book. THE GUY IS REALLY HOT.

Then we got milkshakes. That we did not finish. We are such bad children. I can imagine a bloated fish up there going: YOU ARE CONDEMNED, CHILD. Or children.

THEN LIBRARY. Then I took bus to tuition. I was an hour late. Not on purpose. No, no, no.





"
See, I dont know why I liked you so much
"


with love, Bindhu(: